We
have seen in previous posts that the radical mercy Jesus embodies and demands of
his followers is hard. Love your enemies (here and here), be about forgiveness (here), care for the poor
(here), bear the burden of those who persecute you (here), risk hospitality to the stranger (here).
But,
to paraphrase a question posed in response to one of those previous posts, what
if one just doesn't have the fortitude to live this kind of mercy? Are we
failures?
Jesus
does call us to a radical, vulnerable, self-sacrificial love that is as
completely merciful to all as the mercy of the One Jesus called Father. That is
part of what it means to take up the way of the cross. That said, the harm some
people inflict is real, some wounds inflicted are profound, and some people are
more burdensome than others. The weight of the cross can seem too much to bear.
To be merciful is to be vulnerable and to be vulnerable is to risk pain and
loss.
Only
God is fully able to be fully merciful. Only God is infinitely vulnerable and
able to bear the burden of all the pain and hate and violence and fear of the world. We are not God
and not infinitely vulnerable. Most of us need to step back sometimes lest we
be overwhelmed. That is not necessarily failure. God knows that “we are but
dust.” It is good to remember that even our pursuit to become more like Jesus
is lived under the Mercy. But, the goal has still been set before us. Sometimes
we take two steps forward and one step back. Sometimes we just inch along. The
Saints are those who have gone further toward that goal. That is why they stand
out.That is why they provoke and inspire us.
Jesus
promises that we do not bear the burden alone. He gives the Holy Spirit to bear
the cross with us. And we are called into the community of the Church where
others can help bear the load.
Our
progress in the way of Jesus is likely to be a herky-jerky affair. The healing of our hearts is a frustratingly slow process. But, we
still hope for progress and transformation – under the Mercy.
Here
is some wisdom from Bono of the rock band, U2:
I have heard of people having life-changing,
miraculous turn-arounds, people set free from addiction after a single prayer,
relationships saved when both parties "let go, and let God". But it
was not like that for me. For all that "I was lost, I am found," it
is probably more accurate to say, "I was really lost, I’m a little less so
at the moment." And then a little less and a little less again. That to me
is the spiritual life. The slow reworking and rebooting of a computer at
regular intervals, reading the small print of the service manual. It has slowly
rebuilt me in a better image. It has taken years though, and it is not over
yet.
– U2 BY U2, p. 6
And
here are a couple of pertinent quotes from John Newton, the author of Amazing Grace:
I am not what I ought to be, I am not what I want
to be, I am not what I hope to be in another world; but still I am not what I
once used to be, and by the grace of God I am what I am.
Although my memory's fading, I remember two
things very clearly: I am a great sinner and Christ is a mighty Savior.
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